Hmmmm

Sad. hmm







bye

May not be first, may it be last.

I may not be your first, and I want it to be last. Last it forever. 6 months plus minum being together. With a little fights, including yesterday. I'm very sorry for not being perfect. I did my best to be the one and pls fix it to make me become better for the future. I know its rlly hard for you, having a girlfriend with lots of guy friends I have, trust me. Deep in my heart, you're the only one. I love you, thanks for being there, always for me.

Weaknesses

20 years old in coming 11 months.

Happy new year everyone.

I can't sleep. I did promised with Apam I will sleep within an hour.. but it passed an hour and I'm sorry because I can't. I will try my best to sleep after this. After this post.

Been almost 20 years on earth, up and downs. Also some weaknesses need to be improve.

One, not organized kind of girl. I admit, I am not really an organize person. Which, you know. I am a girl, and someday, a wife. Should be more organize  right? But, after entering my degree life, I did improved a little. But somehow, I am a bit embarrassed with my Boyfriend because he is, more organize than me. He is. I am should be more than him because I'm a girl and will be a wife. But someday, I will, show him, how organize am I as a wife. You'll see.

Second, lazy as fuck. One more thing, I AM A GIRL, should not be lazy. In this semester, I learnt that, I am lazy, and I should be that lazy, although I am trying to improve myself, I did pushed myself hard to study, and I did, I kinda improved but I am lazy. I hope the next semester I will, be more serious on my studies. I believe I can.

Third, I am kinda lack of my religion knowledge. I do, and I seriously need more of that. I did tried to improved. I'm on my way to. I don't want to talk much about this. I'm trying to improve, and praying that I would be better on this.

Fourth, I spent too much. Improving on this too. During foundation I spent a lot more. Now, I am a bit, not too much spent money. I don't eat much, but literally, spending too much money on food. Not really in fancy restaurant but expensive. For a student. Starbucks, Nando's and more. Plus, I am not kind of a shopping girl. That might be a benefit to me. Now, I have my list, on gadgets!

A little weaknesses I wrote it up. Also, as you can see my grammar fucked up. Really need to improve this. I I learnt that, My boyfriend get mad easily, when he's on his 'period' (migraine) lewls. He is. I got scolded and I'm scared. His face is kinda  a serious kind of person face. So, he's really... garang.

173 days together, minus 3, 170 days together in the year  2014 was a very nice, pleasant moments for me with him. I am very comfortable with him, and never did to anyone else. Except for when I am taking a 'meeting'. He still couldn't find out when I did. hohehohehehe. Yeah, when I was on my way writing this down, my boyfriend suddenly wake up. Let me tell you, I am in love wit.this guy, deeply in my heart. He's just perfect. Though, some of his weaknesses, he is still perfect. Thank you for loving me, thank you accepting the way I am, I could be annoying especially during his period time. Sorry for that. Thank you, for coming, into my life. Even I'm the one who added you into wechat first. Yeah you should thank me for that. End of this, I love you, so much. Ahmad Afham bin Ariffin.


bye.

Curiosity

I am in some level of high of disappointment and anger whereby, I used to wrote those on my blog, where people could not see, how angry am I at some point. However, writing this down might calm me a little and the disappointment is still there I suppose.

I should not write this down, the actual thing that making me this, I would rather wait for hours and become better... where at some point I will forget about it anyway...

I was in a good mood doing my works which almost done, but still lots to do, but somehow spoiled my mood and wondering, should I do the work or not to. Of course I should, I  have to hand in tomorrow.

I'm hoping that I could just leave it and forget it... and just go with it. At this time, where I really miss my cats.

Sunday, 7th of December

Just fully woke up from my bed, and I was thinking, shit I slept a lot since after I went out yesterday. Though, I have lots of work to do, for what was happened yesterday, give me a little strength today, for the next 2 weeks we gonna meet again, I hope it will not fade so soon....

For next week, I'm gonna have a trip to Johore for our koko activity (?) Which, we going to have marks there.... I don't know.. I'm a little happy and a bit sad bcs I don't have the chance to meet him in few coming weeks. Now, I know on the 10 - 14 week of lecture, will be a very busy week for a degree student, so I will take note of that. 

For the next semester, you know, I had registered subjects and there so should be 2 more subjects I have to add in next semester and the timetable for next semester will be packed well fuck. -.- 

kbai

Degree life including my love life

Been almost a semester in UPM, I thought degree life should be more likely.. umph not as busy as my foundation. But, you see it is more than that. Which I think, even the class is not as pack as foundation, but plus other activities, it is actually packed until night.

As my degree here, so do my love life. To be honest, he's the one I am very close to. He knew all of what I am doing and stuffs, and plus a little arguments and having him around and I'm happy  that. I am veryyy comfortable with him and I'm thankful having him in my life. Plus, having this just first stressful degree life and he's always there to calm me :D

I cant imagine my next 3 yrs of degree life. Though i can feel my confidence level improving, due to activities and my subjects thingy, we spoke lots of English So, I think its maybe improving too. Maybe, good thing though.

My love life is getting better than before, I love him just the way he is. He's soooo tall. and I am soooo short. Lol. Ermm, whiter than me, Idk this white sound so wrong, not tanned as me. Chinese look. good personalities. Responsible.

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Degree Programme!

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelo, foundation checked, now is the seventh week of me as a degree student. Been busy as a degree student even though my class is not that packed as during foundation, but well, I'm a degree student, for coming 4 years! yay!

So, I am taking bachelor science in food service management, which, in the future, i will work as chef, restaurant manager, stuff, something like that. I am not really into cooking, so its kinda interesting anyway.

As for now, assignments, due dates, stuff, lots of thing to do, with my performance, too ( I'm joining zapin anyway ) well, yeah.....

I've been busy lately, with stuffs, I guess.

Not to much to write, but, I am kinda free now, I guess, and yeah.

I have a boyfriend, his name is afham. Ahmad Afham bin Ariffin