NEW YEAR 2014

Hello, 2013 is finally oveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer. So, someone seems.. missing his ex badly. Awh, I can see, how much he loved his ex.. even a year passed after they broke up. I'm.. not. I don't know what I felt. So, 5 years, continuously, usually there's family by my side, having barbeque and countdown. So, the first year without any family gathering, and the first year celebrating my new year, single. Wow. Hewhew. So, basically, I am jealous. Sorry to say. Girly me coming out. Well, I'm not an official girlfriend and stuff. So, I am just jealous as a crush.

So, this new year, I celebrated with my UPM seniors all came from Sarawak. Bbq, karaoke-ing and stuffs. I had so much fun, somehow I missed.. home. I really miss home. 3-4 months already. Haih. I don't want to write much since I'm not in mood. 

I am hoping someone not following up my blog.

Happy new year boys and girls. Be nice to 2014. 

People, that I adore.

This week, this year and all. I've been through a lot. I'm not going to tell about the whole year, I think I'll just tell you what am I doing lately. 

PEWDIEPIE & CUTIEPIE

This is what I've most of the time of my study week, or holiday with. I watched their videos about their life.. game play through and I love it when pewds plays a game with cry. HEHEHEHE. I'm in love with pewds' videos since a year ago. After I broke up with my last boyfriend, I spent most of my time watch pewd's video and thanks to my cousin for introducing his videos to me. I remember the first video I watch was a funny montage. Yeah, I still laugh even if I watch it now. Thanks to him too, I was at that time nearly kill myself because of too depressed being dumped LOL, I am here now. Well he's one of the reason tho. That time was hard, glad that my friends and cousins cheered me up at that time. If, IF pewds is reading this, I hope.. so.. I would like to thank you, for always brighten up my day. Pewds really, thanks a lot. I am hoping that you and marzia will last forever. You two are shoooo cute. I hope that I have a boyfriend like you pewd. Lol. Please, I want more funny montage! and please play more often with cry. Ok, I love his voice and hoping he'll show his face.

 

FELIXIA YEAP

Okay, recently I just found out about this chinese girl. A former Malaysian playboy's model. She's very sexy, and beautiful. She wore bikinis and sexy stuff because of modelling stuffs. So, what's amazing is, she started to wear Hijab. So, earlier today I googled about her and somehow 'stalk' her blogs and read comments from her fb's pictures. I'm ashamed as a muslim, she wanted to wear hijab, BUT, some muslim does not. Even me. before. She said, she felt more comfortable and 'dihormati' when she wears hijab. Maybe, because of her modelling job, she experienced so much thing for being sexy. I read her blog, and also. As a Malay, I am quite ashamed, why? Because some people asked her to do that, and this. Ask her to delete her sexy pictures, and because of she painted her nail. THEY SHOULD DO RESEARCH ABOUT HER FIRST before judging her. SHE IS NOT YET A MUSLIM, and learning to be I guess and some people simply say this and that. They should support her and advice nicely what she should do. As a muslim, that's not the way to approach her. *sigh*  

Me too, I've been through this. I just started to wear hijab for like, a month ago. Yes, some people laughed at me at first, and stared at me the moment I entered my class with hijab on. Even my senior laughed at me. What can I do? Nothing. I'm like, why would you laugh to someone that's trying to change? Well, I am proud of Felixia Yeap tho. I'm not going to post her picture. Just google her yourself.

SOMEONE

 

Meh, this is just a crush of mine here. Well, I don't want to write much about him. Seems like he finally found out my blog. So, this guy actually hmmm a gamer. Well, If I say that I really likes him a lot well that sounds creepy like a stalker and stuff. Lol ok. So, what I adore about him hmmm, a very hardcore gamer but still can manage his time well with studies. I knew some people who study all day all night wtf, even can't beat his score. Well, congrats yay. 

This week

Alright, klaka srwk jak sitok. So, lately mcm banyak benda berlaku kepada diriku. Gittew. First sebab masalah hal ticket flight segal sigek benda tok. Malas nak cerita. Ok aku habis banyak duit kesia. Okay seriously. Agik manas sebenarnya. Tapi cuba nak memaafkan. Aku tok bukan suka berdendam gilak pun. Kakya tek Mizul jumpa my blog. Well, this blog actually mun boleh sikmok lah orang yang dikenali jumpa. Tapi sikhal lah sikda privacy gilak pun. Tahniah lah kepada yang dah jumpa. Malam marek KLMJ baca blog mizul tahun nak dolok dolok. Muka pok nya lagik. Cerita nak hal julot rumpot nya apa kah ya lawak. Kakya, berduet rah whatsapp. Paling lawak bila mizul terhantar rah group kelas lam kol 2 pg gia. awkwarddddddddd... hahaha. Final nak dekat dah tapi aku jak rasa mcm malas gilak. Tangan aku malas nak gerak. Siktauk lah pahal. Hadooooh. K lah. First entry klaka bahasa sarawak. Anyway, cuti krimes ria ada pg main ice skating. Well, nang cepat juak lah aku belajar. Tapi sik terer lah. Pretty impressive! Sik gugok pun muehehehe. Ya jak lah. Minggu tok rasa nak manas jak. mcm mcm jak jadi. Hah! kbai 

Pretty much how I am now

Final getting closer........

As you can see, my finale exam for the second semester is less than a week AND I am not ready. I always am not ready for exams that's why my result is not good as it should be. Lately I get annoyed easily well, I don't know why. PMS is coming wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. No I'm having PMS.  Now. I guess. So, today, a new batch for fast track student registered. I'm not quite sure how many of them. The thing is THEY'RE SMART and they're going to register as a degree student at the same time with us next year if they're not going to choose to move to other university. I'm sure they will get scholarships and stuffs that are way more better than ASPer later. Okay, whatever it is. I think I'm going to study today *wink wink* pray for me that I will concentrate and stop watching my bf's videos (pewds). 
THE THING IS WHY I WANT TO WATCH IT NOW, WHY NOT BEFORE FINALE eyyyyyyyy.

I want these real bad

Wishes:

• I want lots, tons of dolls. Any kind of soft dolls will do. I love it when all of the toys surround me when I asleep. Ahhh heaven! 
• Gaming room. I would spend the whole day there for games. ONLY GAME.
• Beautiful yet unique decorated bedroom. 
• Shoes. A locker a place for shoes. I love shoes. I like to collect shoes. Sneakers and heels. Sneakers mostly. 
• Travel all around the world. One of my dream. Of course, I love to travel and see people.
• Having a great yet loving husband. 
• Cats, kitties around the whole house. TRAINED cat for sure. I want persians cat real bad.

Thinking about going back

Hello, blog. I want to tell you the reasons, why I am actually wanted to go back really bad. Before, of course. I said I really wanted to study well, somewhere in KL so here I am. In UPM doing my foundation in one of the best university in Malaysia. I should say, I am proud to be here, and thankful to be here too. I'm doing Foundation of agricultural science. It's not all about agriculture, seems sound like it, but its actually not. For short, It's ASPer (Asasi Sains Pertanian) in Malay. Readers or people that are going to apply for UPU might think that ASPer actually is for Pertanian, or for noob. Let me tell you, this foundation that I'm taking, you actually can apply for engineer, doctor, vet, or many more course for degree in UPM after you finish your foundation. Three semester in one year, it's actually packed but worth it. I'm sure I wouldn't regret after taking this foundation. Plus, any program that are in UPM are reserved for ASPer student first before they taking others student from matrix or so on. So higher chance for you to get place for degree later on. Depends on your pointer, of course. Also, the pointer is lowered for ASPer's student. So, easier to get place too. Now I'm in the second semester, going to sit for final exam next week before going back to Sarawak yay! Back to the topic, Why?

• Ya know, I am from Sarawak. and starting from degree, my parents going to pay all my fees later on and also, tickets to go KL and stuffs. I'm not from a rich family, I'm not also too poor. I'm sure my parents can pay for all. I know they can. But, I worked with them before entering UPM. I felt sorry for them, I helped them and felt they way they work, the stress. How hard they worked. On the day they left me before going back, they said. 'Study hard, we worked for you. For your future'. I felt so sad, so hard. from 5am in the morning they wakes up everyday to 10pm. Almost everyday. Even me, I can't stand working continuously like that. I said to them, 'Why wouldn't you take a break' and they told me, 'Who would pay for your studies later?' and now I'm here. In KL. Who pays for all of these that I have here? Them. With all their hardwork.  I felt so sorry now, I wasted lots of their money. I really did. I want to go back. I want to help them during my free time. I want to reduce their burden to pay for all of my studies later. That's the main reason for sure. I love them. They cared about my future than their's. 
• Well, the second reason, doesn't make any sense. Because, I hate doing my own laundry. I want to go somewhere nearer to my home, so I can go back and do my laundry at home. Well, much easier. I'm quite jealous with people that live nearer UPM here actually. So yeah. I wanted to do that real bad :p

If I can't continue my studies nearer my home, it's okay tho. I'm not quite sure If I could. If I can't I just have to study hard of course. 

Middle Sem 2

TEST 2

So, I'm just done with my second test. YAY? So, I'm here. Lately, I skipped lot of class. I became lazier each day. After exam, I regret for what I've done. Starting this week, I'm gonna start it all over again since last 2 weeks I have this random mental breakdown. What I can summarize about this second test TOTALLY FUCKED UP. Seriously. Huih, I don't know whats going on with me. I'm just hoping my result will be okay. So, I was thinking what I'm going to do after ASPer? I don't know anything that suits me well. I don't know if I'm going to stay or just move to somewhere else. 

TODAY

MATHEMATICS TEST 2

So, 12.22 AM in the morning, studied Mathematics for today's second test. Last paper! Thank god. Thanks to Kuku, she asked me to study with her classmates which help me a lot! I'm doing my assignment now, but nah I should just waste my little time on this blogging thing since I'm too stress when to think about that the fact is I'm not actually ready for the test yet. Well, I'm truly stress lately, My classmates told me I look dull for 2-3 days even this guy that I like told me lately I'm like all by myself. Well, I guess for the time being I felt like everyone surrounding me are so annoying. So, I'm trying to avoid myself from getting angry and just there. All by myself. Well, now I'm getting much better though. So, there's nothing to be worry about. I'm quite sleepy actually, well I think I better study a little before going to sleep. Well, personal blogging for today. Wish me luck to whoever read this. May god bless your day :3