Thinking about going back

Hello, blog. I want to tell you the reasons, why I am actually wanted to go back really bad. Before, of course. I said I really wanted to study well, somewhere in KL so here I am. In UPM doing my foundation in one of the best university in Malaysia. I should say, I am proud to be here, and thankful to be here too. I'm doing Foundation of agricultural science. It's not all about agriculture, seems sound like it, but its actually not. For short, It's ASPer (Asasi Sains Pertanian) in Malay. Readers or people that are going to apply for UPU might think that ASPer actually is for Pertanian, or for noob. Let me tell you, this foundation that I'm taking, you actually can apply for engineer, doctor, vet, or many more course for degree in UPM after you finish your foundation. Three semester in one year, it's actually packed but worth it. I'm sure I wouldn't regret after taking this foundation. Plus, any program that are in UPM are reserved for ASPer student first before they taking others student from matrix or so on. So higher chance for you to get place for degree later on. Depends on your pointer, of course. Also, the pointer is lowered for ASPer's student. So, easier to get place too. Now I'm in the second semester, going to sit for final exam next week before going back to Sarawak yay! Back to the topic, Why?

• Ya know, I am from Sarawak. and starting from degree, my parents going to pay all my fees later on and also, tickets to go KL and stuffs. I'm not from a rich family, I'm not also too poor. I'm sure my parents can pay for all. I know they can. But, I worked with them before entering UPM. I felt sorry for them, I helped them and felt they way they work, the stress. How hard they worked. On the day they left me before going back, they said. 'Study hard, we worked for you. For your future'. I felt so sad, so hard. from 5am in the morning they wakes up everyday to 10pm. Almost everyday. Even me, I can't stand working continuously like that. I said to them, 'Why wouldn't you take a break' and they told me, 'Who would pay for your studies later?' and now I'm here. In KL. Who pays for all of these that I have here? Them. With all their hardwork.  I felt so sorry now, I wasted lots of their money. I really did. I want to go back. I want to help them during my free time. I want to reduce their burden to pay for all of my studies later. That's the main reason for sure. I love them. They cared about my future than their's. 
• Well, the second reason, doesn't make any sense. Because, I hate doing my own laundry. I want to go somewhere nearer to my home, so I can go back and do my laundry at home. Well, much easier. I'm quite jealous with people that live nearer UPM here actually. So yeah. I wanted to do that real bad :p

If I can't continue my studies nearer my home, it's okay tho. I'm not quite sure If I could. If I can't I just have to study hard of course.