MUET and my wish

Hello, I just got my Malaysian University English Test. So, rank from 6 to 1, 6(highest) 1 (lowest) So... I got 3. Average I should say


So.. Lately I've been missing this one feeling.. missing to be taken care of. Something like, Hey Aeliz have you eaten yet? I always reply with no because I eat when I wanted too. Since, I don't really like to eat much. So.. Someone *bijslap* why would you not eat?! Go eat something! and yeah, I have to eat something because of that. Or sometimes I got bijslap for no reason.. LOL ~ 


I miss night calls... I really do. I miss when the feeling talking to someone before going to sleep. When, we'll argue something stupid.. or maybe just telling how hard the day we had been through, or just talking about our past and share our feeling. Yeah It has been more than a year I didn't do that. Yay me?!

Of course, good morning wishes.. Every morning, through whatsapp or message.. Have a simple good morning text of course will make my day! Usually If I didn't receive any I would felt like.. I think he doesn't love me anymore.. LOL Yeah.. That's just me. But, I'll always keep that a secret until the time I blow up.


Arguments. Of course, all those fights. Well, to tell you the truth I hate get into this fight. But actually, It's just something that can improve our bonding right? I am a crybaby, I really am. -.-;


Skyping..... Skype is just one way I can talk face to face to most of my ex since most of them like live far away. I don't know why...


Those, relationships taught me... If I am going to have a boyfriend.. not really sure when.. But, If he says something like, Hey, I want to take care of you. InsyaAllah forever.. (means, promise... we can't predict the future right?) InsyaAllah, for the rest of my life and I'll bring you to Jannah... :') How sweet is that? And please, don't forget the diamond ring! *kaching kaching* and mini cooper on your side too, the least is BMW. Haha, Just kidding. What for sure is, who are sure they can take care of me, would just accept me the way I am.. matured please... and yeah.. My prinsip, If they accept me they way I am, InsyaAllah I will too. That is just me, I'm not too choosy I just someone, just love the way I am.. The money and stuffs, I don't mind, if they know how to just use it wisely and that would be okay for me, Since, I think I'm not going to live on my husband's money too much.. I'll just make my own money :3

Sad - holiday - happy - new sem

So yeah, It has been a very long time already since my last post. More than a week already. So, I actually had finished my final exam few days ago and currently in Kuching! My beloved hometown. So, I was actually quite stress with my final exams, well honestly I'm not hoping to get a very good results. Well, I hope I will but well. It doesn't seem like its going to be that good. So. I am just hoping that I pass all the subjects to live. Okay, Before final exam I was very stress, and during final exam too. 

So, few days back I went to Damai with my parents and my lil bro, well they want to bring me somewhere nice in Kuching since I'm only going to be here for a week only. Unfortunately, I was too dizzy at that time and felt like wanna puke. So, I ask my parents to go back because I can't stand all the dizziness and then I take off my lens and threw it away so I can take a nap peacefully in car without worrying about my eyes. That day was a public holiday so my parents bring me to the hospital since most of the clinic closed that day. The doctor checked me, he doesn't know what is wrong with me, but my blood pressure is quite high, which is 150/70 which is normally 120/80. The doctor said it might be because of the irregular sleep time and because of stress. Because my period cycle also fucked up. 

Since then, I am trying to fix back my biological clock back to normal. Too bad, I am not as before, can't stand staring my lappy screen too long. I wish I was like before, I miss slacking and stuffs.

I actually, spent most of my midsem not playing game but helping my mum and also... rest. Well, I guess better rest than playing games. I should get ready for my sem 3 mentally and physically.

Yesterday, I was video calling with my crush. So, It was quite suprising though... I didn't expect that but It actually made me happy. Thanks. 

Then, so my idea about the English Vintage actually didn't get the highest vote. How sad. The highest vote was Fire and Ice thingy. So, I am not really that sad. I am planning to get myself a red dress and wear blue shawl on that day maybe. Thats all for personal blogging today :D

Boyfriends, exboyfriends.

-REMOVED- :P

2 more papers

Huiiiiiiii, my exam just now, was quite okay I guess. A lot of people said it was not really okay. Hmm. I'm having Imsonia lately. I'm a bit worried, I don't want this to happen. If I am too tired the low blood pressure will come again haaa. I should take good care of myself since I'm far away from my family. 

I have this low blood pressure thingy when I'm stress, happened to me once. Real bad. 3 days in a row major headache then went to see a doctor and got 2 days of mc. Then no class for a week yay!

Whatever it is, I am going back in a few days. Yess, I am happy. Very happy.

Well, yeah. The entry that I posted about going back thingy and move to UNIMAS. I think, that's no going to happen. The thing is, if I sell myself like 20 cent, other IPTA is not going to accept me anyway. So, I'll just stay here for the next few years.

I don't really mind staying here though. 

Good luck for me for the next two papers! 

KUCHING I'M COMING BITCHHHHHHHHH.

The third dayyyyyyyy wee?

Hello, Last night I thought I can rape my calculus paper... The Calculus raped me instead. How sad.. Whatever it is, I'm done with calculus and next is Agriculture paper.... Many of them said.. SO MUCH THING TO REMEMBER... But me, hmm I don't know. I'm scared because I don't think it too much or maybe because... I lack of some things? Ahhh, I read it for the last time. Tomorrow. So, what I learnt today... I think.. I've moved on.. But, some of people than I knew. They don't. How sad, my crush is one of them. So here, just now my ex told me about his sad story.. And he's sad, he gave up on everything. Even 2 years passed. He still kept thinking about someone he once loved a lot. Hmm, I was wondering... how long do it take, to actually moving on? Why am I moved on so fast? Well, its good though, Because breaking up hurts a lot.

A LOT. A LOT. 

I am worried, about something tho. I am giving on hope on someone. Hah! I should avoid myself from getting hurt... Please, hope. Go away. Go away ~

I don't want this to be more serious. I don't want bad ending. I should pause it before or stop it before the end. Right?

Second day of the year?

Hi, so. This is the second day of the year. Yay? Too bad, I'm not really as happy as before. Because, usually I end my year with peace and celebrate it with my lovely cousins. So this is the first year.. without them. But, it went okay though. So just now I went for an English.. final test. There were questions about online games. As an online gamer, I was soooooooooooo damn happy and excited to answer the questions. But then... they were talking about... candy crush. I was like hmmmmmmm. Okayy.... The exam went ok except for some questions.. Well I am VERY BAD at comforting people if like they were sad or something. So, I screwed up that one. It should be answered politely and nicely and stuffs, but I answered as a bad ass. 

Actually, I'm not really in mood these 2-3 days. I'm not sure what the hell is going on with me. Just be careful, I'm sometimes... well. Nah I don't want to talk about it. So, yeah, Something is bothering me.. It is. I don't know how to get it out of my mind........

I think... I'm just giving on some ... 

HOPE...

 Well, I hope.. I will get over it...

 "Hoping on something will kill you inside"