Ask dot fm.

Helllllllllllllllllllllllllllo blog,

Recently I was playing with this interesting apps ask.fm which people u might know or might not know ask you question anonymously or maybe not. Very interesting, know what people doubt about you but too scared to ask.

However, some people ask questions..... which kinda private. And there's one person, who asked me something private like she/he actually know what is happening with my lovey dovey situation now. "you're confused to choose him with another man?" oh my miss/mister. It is actually, quite rude asking that which I know you think I'm a bitch which is actually not.

Here, I am confused of his feeling towards me. Like Mizul said, I'm ego. But, for me. I'm scared to show how much I like this someone, or maybe love him since I'm not in official relationship with him. I don't want to be an annoying crush, because I hate if a person who maybe have a crush on me, MAYBE, will be that annoying. I don't want my crush to hate me because I'm annoying. Even I didn't show, I actually keep thinking about someone. No need to mention, but well, he just well, light up my day even when to just think about him, before. But now, hmm. I still do like him but .... I don't know him anymore.

*heavy sigh* I'm missing someone a lot, and I'm too scared to tell him how much I missed him.... I can't sleep at night when to think about what actually I did wrong...

If I say I move on,,, well I should,, maybe. I don't know. Can't wait to end my foundation course here. After that I'll let it all out .... I just, don't want karma comes back to me. I admit, I hurt someone's feeling recently and really, I didn't mean it. I am so sorry about that and I can't keep pretending. I felt very guilty everytime I says I love you without the actual feeling.

Hihi, whatever it is, I'm praying, I don't want to repeat the same mistake like I did, and I'm sorry for my wrong doings toward readers of this blog. I'm sorry. I want to clear my mind, and please, If you just have something private to tell/ask me just contact me directly through my twitter or fb or maybe phone number. I'm on my way to improve myself here. Thanks a lot, for you, for your support.